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The dementia blues

My mother’s dementia has made me crazy, frustrated, furious, heartbroken, envious of other people who still have intact parents, and this week brings the sad. Crying in my Greek hotel room sad. My mother’s phone number is blocked because she … Continue reading

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Dementia has made me crazy

For over 5 years now my brothers and I have been living with the effects of a family member having dementia. Our mom, who I have written about before, is worse by the week. Dementia brings out the worst in … Continue reading

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Reason #kajillion why I hate dementia

“Is your dad taking you?” My mom asked when I said I had a colonoscopy in the morning. I was momentarily speechless. I know I am probably not supposed to but I can’t help myself. “Mom, Dad has been gone … Continue reading

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Decembers to remember

Did you think of a car commercial just now? A big bow on a Lexus possibly in the snowy driveway with exclamations by the receiver? Me too. But dang it does rhyme nicely. New experiences for this month – it … Continue reading

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Dementia in 2023

It’s been about a year since I did an update on my mom. The long goodbye is awful. “A fucking cruel disease” as one of my brothers said recently. That sums it up well. For awhile we coasted on that … Continue reading

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Day tripping with Mom

My mother turns 83, Saturday Dec 17th. Thursday before her birthday, I drove her to the Dallas area to visit with her only surviving sibling, her younger sister by a year. My aunt also has dementia as did their other … Continue reading

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My so called charmed life

I spend a lot of time making sure I recognize joy in the moment. I can feel it find it know it even in swirl around me. Sometimes that is harder than others of course. I had a friend recently … Continue reading

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More dreams of the lost one

In January 2020 I wrote a post about my late first husband Ray. https://txtravelgirl.wordpress.com/2020/01/19/dreams-of-the-lost-one/ It was about a specific dream that time and dreams in general that he appears and has over the last 17.5 years he has now been … Continue reading

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All in one weekend

“Life is amazing. And then it’s awful. And then it’s amazing again. And in between the amazing and awful it’s ordinary and mundane and routine. Breathe in the amazing, hold on through the awful, and relax and exhale during the … Continue reading

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More from days of shadows and fog

“Hope is everything” – Tony in After Life The last week of January I was reading Broken (in the best possible way) by Jenny Lawson aka The Bloggess. Her first person narrative/memoir style books are wonderful in pulling back the … Continue reading

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